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I’m completely single now. Apparently yesterday’s “break” wasn’t permanent but I made it permanent today. I couldn’t deal with the constant fighting anymore. And the more I think I about it and how I am right now, I don’t think I was ever IN love with him. I liked the idea. I don’t think I was because I’m already talking to someone else I thought was cute when me and my ex first starting dating. I think I talked to John for at least 4 hours tonight. Now I just have to figure out if I actually like him or if it’s the rebound. I don’t think it’s the rebound because I didn’t even think about my ex while I was talking to John. He has the brightest blue eyes I have ever seen. We’re gonna see if we keep getting along before ANYTHING is decided. Right now, we are just friends and I’m perfectly fine with that. I don’t want to rush into a relationship. And my manager, I’m slowly getting over him. He has a boyfriend, I’m not going to ruin that. I’m just gonna keep talking to John, he’s closer to my age anyway. He makes the cutest text smilies too haha - “). I don’t know why but I find that really cute.

Well, I’m tired. Goodnight Tumblr universe!

I think I caused the guy I’m crushing on and his bf to fight. Someone the bf found out I like him

Found out for a fact that my crush is still dating someone. even though he pretty much spent 3 hours flirting with me while I hung out at work haha. we even had a tickle fight. kinda strange but yea. also found out he doesnt have a whole lot in common with the guy he’s dating but he does with me so maybe that will help. idk. I’m just letting it come as it comes. I’ll have a crush on him regardless. And I’m going to be single shortly, whether it’s to be with him or not. I can’t handle fighting with barry anymore. I’m just done with it. Moving out hopefully in a couple of weeks with my bestie :)

Just went through and deleted most of what I’ve posted on his facebook. I’m done. I seriously cannot take another day of fighting…

I hate crushing on people I should. The guy I’m crushing on right now is pretty much someone I can’t have for 3 reasons. 1 - He’s a manager at work and managers aren’t allowed to date employees. 2 - I’m in a relationship, that’s going to end soon but still in one right now. 3 - Last I knew, he was in a relationship as well. Fuck life and it’s curveballs. Recently it seems like either he’s single or he’s having relationship issues because he’s been being really flirty and pretty much breaking sexual harrassment rules haha.